[Rant] Empty

Right now.

I'm feeling the emptiness.

Useless.

Meaningless.

Hopeless.

Heartless.

I tried my best.

I don't know why my heart can't listen to my mind.

I really want to move on.

But I can't forget everything.

Feelings do complicated.

And a task that takes time to settle it.

I still hold back my feelings.

I want to avoid hurting other people's feelings.

Am I wrong?

You don't know anything.

Unless, you feel it too.

I already promise myself.

Yet, I'm still broking every single of it.

How to be fair?

Of others and my own feelings.

How to force yourself?

Only tears that accompany me.

There's no solution.

Finding happiness is your own effort.

I'm still seeking.

While I'm building my dreams.

I gotta keep strong and protect it.

I gotta do it.

I know I can!

Please ignore your hurt feelings okay.

There's much more things waiting infront of you.

Every day isn't a rainy day.

There gotta be sunshine appear.

And give you warmness of life.

Give yourself a chance.

Dear feelings of the King of Heart.

Please take care.

Xoxo.

[Rant] Second week di UTeM

Zaki suka mengumpul setem,

sudah dua minggu aku menetap di UTeM.

Greetings and Hi.

Yeah, I'm here in UTeM for two weeks already. First week, orientation life. Second week, university life. I already told about my first day of class right? Haha. On the next classes in the second week were awesome too! Sorry lah, aku sebenarnya nak praktikkan Bahasa Inggeris. So, mind if I "rojakkan" this two language? Maybe some people will understand, and some people will not.

The lecturers here are awesome. Just started kuliah. Tutorial and lab session we didn't start anything yet. I'm looking forward for it. Buat masa sekarang, tak dapat kereta lagi. So, I gotta take the bus. Ouh, nak cerita something funny.

On my second day of class, I accidentally woke up late. Aku tertinggal bus pukul 7pagi hahahahah. And my class starts at 8pagi. So, without any thoughts or regrets... I just walked to my faculty. From my hostel to my faculty. I didn't think anything at all, except the fact that I'm late. Haha. So I walked quickly as I can. Suddenly, there's a motorcycle stop beside me. There's a girl with pink hijab, offering me a ride to the faculty. I accepted the offer, and it was my first time. Riding a motorcycle. And without a helmet.

I know it was dangerous. But, I didn't think anything about it during that time. If my parents knew about it, I'm sure they'll mad at me. Sorry by the way. So, I said thanks and gave a thankful smile to that girl after a stop, infront of the faculty. She smiled back at me too.

I didn't have any extra time to ask her name. But from my observations, she looked older than me. I knew that we're from the same hostel (which-that-means-maybe-she's-new-intake-too). I didn't know her name, yet her age or her course. She wore tudung labuh with a nerdy thick spectacles and looked so matured. So I assume her as kakak. Thanks anyway for the bumpy first ride, sorry for holding you too tight (I'm scared actually because it was my first time).

So, just to shorten up my story.

Takde kelas pun pagi tu. Ha ha ha (you can laugh now). Buat penat je gelabah. Ingat lambat pergi kelas. Yelah, pergi faculty awal-awal tp antara gap takde kelas pun takde benda nak buat. Aku lepak kt library, cafe or surau jelah. Surau is the best place. Sebab sejuk gila mengigil baq anggg! Hahaha. Jangan lupa bawak selimut or jacket woi kalau tidur kat surau FTK. Pastu, KEREX ade buat event F.O.C wall climbing. Tp aku terlajak tidur petang rabu tu. Petang Khamis pun ade, tp malas woi nak pergi Kampus Induk. Transportation takde parah babe (T.T) Clash dengan class lagi. Hmmmm. Meeting koko taekwondo under UTeM pun dah pergi. Coach sporting ah gak. Aku ingat dia garang :3

So here it goes. I'm building some more memories here. I have a lot of hope here.

A hope for my future. I'm building up my strength.

Watch me.

[Rant] Aku di UTeM

Belajar bersungguh-sungguh untuk berjaya,

dengarlah pengalamanku ke Universiti Teknikal Malaysia Melaka.

Hello!! At last..... Sempat juga aku menaip kat ruangan ni :3 Okay, kali ni nak cerita mengenai pengalaman aku : "Perasaan masuk universiti untuk sambung degree, kenangan minggu orientasi di UTeM dan kelas yag pertama (iaitu hari ini) di Fakulti Teknologi Kejuruteraan - FTK and so on"

Perasaan nak masuk universiti ;

(Cuak, excited, takut, happy)

Waktu mendaftar memang berjalan lancar. Sekejap je daftar, amik barang-barang UTeM semua dan kunci bilik sekali. Oh, aku dapat kos Ijazah Sarjana Muda Teknologi Kejuruteraan Elektrik (Kuasa Industri) with codename BETI. Sebenarnya, aku tak perasan pun ayat "Teknologi" tu. So, aku ingatkan aku dapat course pure engineering (sebab waktu hari pendaftaran tu baru aku perasan hahaha).

Okay, dipendekkan cerita.

UTeM ade 3 kampus; Kampus Induk (Main Campus), Kampus Bandar (City Campus) dan Kampus Industri (Industrial Campus). Fakulti Teknologi Kejuruteraan - FTK (which is fakulti aku) terletaknya di Kampus Industri, Ayer Keroh Melaka.

Hostel ade banyak, malas lah nak mention semua. Just nak mention my hostel, Sri Utama kat area Taman Tasik Utama - TTU. Which is so near with my campus (jalan kaki pun bolehh bro, tapi seriously bahaya untuk wanita actually). To those people who didn't have any transportation, you can definitely take the bus :) Bas UTeM disediakan. Kena pandai lah manage masa.

Facilities university boleh tahan hebatnya. Especially kat Kampus Induk. Ye lah main campus kan, of course gempak. Okay nak cerita semua pasal kemudahan ni, sampai esok tak habis. Kahkah korang tengok jela sendiri okay.

So far, minggu orientasi amatlah baik!! Aku suka gila kot. Because before this, I thought orientation week will be as sucks as during my previous matriculation orientation (MPPB). Good job anyway to FaSaSi (nama khas utk fesi UTeM). Nothing disturbs my first expression towards UTeM. Respect!

Cuma melainkan pelajar baru yang pelik-pelik ni haaa. Aku sendiri tak faham kenapa ramai sangat lack of commonsense. Hmm. Tapi nak buat macam mana, aku buat bodoh je lah. Alaaa, benda-benda remeh yang aku rasa semua orang patut tahu tapi macam bangang tak tahu. Please lah beretika sikit. Okay dah malas nak sambung part ni. Annoyed gila.

Next! Pasal kos yang aku amik. Mula-mula aku macam tak faham dengan kos aku. Blur gila. Apa benda lah kos ni kan? Korang semua pun mesti nak tahu kan kan?

Firstly, kos aku ni masih baru. Tak silap aku, aku ni batch BETI yang ketiga kat FTK. UTeM is the first university yang berani buat kos ni. After aku dengar ceramah daripada Dekan dgn Ketua Jabatan aku, baru aku faham. This course sounds interesting. Yet, it was the toughest among all. Jumlah kredit pun lebih banyak daripada kos lain. Kos aku 4 tahun which means aku kena tempohi 8 semester. Paling maximum 1 semester = 19 credits. Pure engineering pun tak macam ni.

Kos teknologi engineering ni special sikit. Negara lain pun dah belambak dah kos ni seperti di Jerman, Perancis dan Hong Kong. 40% jurutera, 60% teknologis kejuruteraan. 80% bidang pekerjaan memerlukan teknologis kejuruteraan. Biasanya technologist engineer (pro practical & theories) and kerja dengan pure engineer (pro theoretical). Aku salin semua information ni daripada ceramah yang aku dengar waktu Hari Bersama Fakulti (HBF) kat FTK.

HBF also was amazing! Aku macam wow gila. Subjects registration pun semua dah beres! 19 credits for this first sem. Ouh dan koko aku terpaksa amik taekwondo! Haha cuz yang lain semua full dah -.-" Kelab dan persatuan bukan under pembelajaran UTeM, aku masuk KEREX (aktiviti sukan lasak) dgn Kelab Media & Fotografi.

Semalam ade faculty touring. Fakulti aku memang besar gila boleh sesat kot. Fakulti aku dulu ex-kilang. So, suasana betul-betul sebijik macam kilang sebenar. Total ade 4 factory, 22 lab, 1 cafe and 1 admin building. Sebelah fakulti aku ade green cubic, iaitu Fakulti Kejuruteraan Mekanikal - FKM. Makmal kitorang ada banyak, tapi tak semua boleh guna. Ada beberapa lab yang on the way nak siap. Tools and machines sure look expensive as hell. So, I hope I can use all of them before I graduate! :)

Hari ni dah start class. Waktu orientasi haritu aku kumpulan 2 (nama kelas aku rasa haha). Tapi smlm dah rombak balik kelas/group kepada tiga kumpulan. So, aku dalam golongan kumpulan 3. Hahahah sama dengan Addey. Ouh, kesian mamat tu. Dia kena demam campak. Get well soon okay! Dalam jadual, kelas hari ni sepatutnya ade 3. Tapi 1 je kelas (iaitu lab) which ada tadi, subject digital electronics and systems. Belajar buat circuit guna Multisim software. Best gilaaaaa!! Okay aku sumpah jakun. Hahahaha k diam ah.

Aku dah lupa betei pasal Integrated Circuit (IC). Next week baru start lab, sebab baru dapat safety shoes je. Lab jacket FTK belum lagi. Setakat ni, ramai jugak lah kawan-kawan baru. Classmates, housemates... Tapi berbanding dengan waktu orientasi haritu, lagi lah aku memang selalu sorang. Banyak benda nak cerita. Tapi, setakat ni je lah okay. Kbye :)