[Rant] November turns to Movember

I guess November isn't awesome as I wished for.

November is worst than October.

I hate November.

I miss the view of the sky during October.

The October sky that made me dream well.

And now, I just have to wake up and realise.

September had end. October too. And now I'm in November.

Damn sucks.

I don't want to hope on you for a longer period.

I'll try to deny it as hard as I could.

You always said nice things to me, you always compliment me,
you call me, you gave me hopes.

You said that you miss me twice.

But I knew that, there isn't my name in your heart.

So I'm trying to keep a distance between us.

To be honest, I hate this feelings.
Stop playing with me.

It's time to MOVEMBER.

I'm going to enjoy my single teenage life.

-- YOLO.

[Rant] Hate myself and I hate you

Sometimes, I don't realize my attitude.

Sometimes, I don't understand my feelings.

Until someone told me. If not, I would not realize it at all.

I don't want to waste my second confession.

Tbh, I really hate myself -.-

I hate you for giving me hopes!

Atho.

Stop wasting time.

I always wonder why.

Why I always wanted happiness so much?

Yet, I knew that happiness on this world is temporary.

Just keep it deep down in your heart girl.

Just focus on important things in life.

You can't have a rainbow, without little rain Atho.

#nowplaying
Deritaku Bahagiamu by Hafiz.

"Ku dengar kau cinta sangat padanya
Ku dengar hatimu kini miliknya
Dia kan menjadi teman sehidup dan semati
Aku menjadi sahabatmu

Siksanya mengakui kau teman biasa
Terpaksa ku terima itu hakikatnya
Yang pasti aku tak mahu lupakan cinta
Kau percik api membakar kenangan lama

Aku tak tahu menilai cintamu
Aku tak mampu pertahankan

Tinggalkanku, perlahan-lahan ku trima
Semakin ku sakit, semakin kau bahgia
Mengapakah aku jadi lemah
Sungguh ku tak sangka dia membawa jantungku bersamamu

Yang pasti aku tak mau lupakan cinta
Kau percik api membakar kenangan lama

Aku tak tahu menilai cintamu
Aku tak mampu pertahankan

Tinggalkanku, perlahan-lahan ku trima
Semakin ku sakit, semakin kau bahgia
Mengapakah aku jadi lemah
Sungguh ku tak sangka dia membawa jantungku bersamamu, bersamamu

Mengapakah aku jadi lemah
Sungguh ku tak sangka dia membawa jantungku bersamamu"

[Rant] November days

It's been awhile, and it's November already. There's so much things happened. Which I don't know where to start about it.

My classes and lectures were awesome, except there's one subject which I must learn in dwibahasa (I think it's tough to learn in BM because literally, I used to learn in English).

Then, my classmates were great. Except there's one person who I dislike so much. It's because of her attitude. I don't want to story about her here. I'll hope she realized that NO ONE IS PERFECT. She loves to "menganjing" other people. And it's over the limit. The end, for her story.

Well, I got so much to do. So, I malas nak amik port with that kind of people.

During these past months, I joined a #fit2drive campaign. It was a media social competition between all the university in Malaysia. There were four people in my group, which is Addey, Sengih, Azimah and me. Our team name is Fantastic Four. It's kinda childish name, but that name just popped in my mind. Especially when you gelabah pagi-pagi sebab sir minta nama group right away and you gotta think fast. So I finally made one. Hahahahaha.

The campaign was awesome!! I really gained so much experiences and teamwork was really important. At first, we managed to achieve 16th place in team rankings. There was 65 teams which I'm not mistaken. Then, in those 23 days we gotta campaign about vehicle inspection. Aware people to inspect their vehicle. The finalist had been made, we got 21st place and there was a senior team from UTeM was selected for top 5 rankings. Congrats to Oracle Vehicle team for the 1st place! All the best for the grand finale which is tomorrow, is the day! The grand prize for the winner is a trip to Japan, well I'm a bit sad because I really like Japan!

So setakat ini, itu je lah yang best. Haha. Ouh and I already done ECF TEST. Alhamdulillah, I got
confidence for that paper. But hey, I got 3 or 4 more test after my sem break (which is now I'm really in a holiday mood). I need inspiration and motivation please! Don't be lazy bam bam okay Atho! Hihi.

Hmmmm. Actually, I lost my IC and driver license. I lost it after the ecf test. I know I'm careless *sepak diri sendiri*. But I put them in my pocket. I guess it slipped out from my pocket. So, my one week holiday of sem break is not good as I imagined. I got a lot things to do!

Anyway, Salam Maal Hijrah.
Sorry for any mistakes or any wrongdoings.
I'm imperfect. Kbye :P